© Ayo Omolayo
I sat down on the bed. My eyes never left my Bible. I didn’t know who told Evelyn to bring my Bible to the hospital. I guess she was sure I would need it.
I had spoken to the nurse to untie me. She noticed how calm I was and concluded I was sincere. She untied me and stood watching.
I took my Bible and began to read. She kept watching me, expecting me to start one of my mad lady drama. All I did was chuckle at intervals as I read.
She kept watching me with interest and sat on the bed beside me. I turned to look at her and smiled.
“Do you mind joining me?” I asked.
“Join you to do what?”
“Read the scriptures”, I answered.
She smiled and looked at me.
“Don’t worry! Go ahead. I’ve had my own share of all this”, she replied.
I was surprised, or should I say confused was the right word. I looked at her with that face that spoke I needed explanation.
“I mean, me and God understand ourselves”, she said and gave a sad smile.
I gave her a look of curiosity. What could be the meaning of what she was saying?
“Daddy, what do I tell her?” I asked.
“SARAH!” Came the gentle whisper.
“Sarah? I don’t understand”, I replied.
“JUST MENTION THE NAME SARAH”.
“Is that her name?”
“JUST SAY IT”,
“Why do need to say it?”
“CRIS, YOU ASK TOO MUCH QUESTION. JUST MENTION THE NAME”.
“I’m sorry sir!” I replied and turned to look at the Nurse. She was already leaving.
“Ha! Jesus forgive me!” I cried within me and called as she opened the door and was almost stepping out.
“Sarah wait!” I shouted.
She froze and turned to look at me. Her eyes revealed to me that she was shocked.
“Sarah, can you please tell me what happened?” I asked.
“How did you know my name?” She asked.
I smiled and patted the spot beside the bed.
“How on earth did you know my name? She asked with curiosity.
“He told me”, I replied.
That was it. The next thing that happened was that Sarah was on the floor crying.
I don’t understand what was going on. Why would she be crying because I mentioned her name?
“Daddy, what should I do? I’m confused”, I asked.
“TELL HER THAT I STILL LOVE HER”. He answered.
Sarah was still on the floor weeping. She was seriously crying herself out.
“Sarah! He said I should tell you that he still loves you”, I said to her.
“TELL HER THAT MY ARMS ARE WIDE OPEN TO EMBRACE HER”.
“He said I should tell you that his arms are wide open to embrace you!”
She wept more. It looked like for every word I said, she cried the more.
I got up and knelt beside her. I took her hand and caressed it gently.
“Sarah! I’m not the best of Christians. I have so much to confess to you. I have offended God so many times that in anger, God should have crushed me immediately. But he showed me mercy. He loved me, despite my stubbornness and wrongs.
I’m here to share that love with you. I’m here to tell you that he hasn’t stopped loving you. He’s here to save you. Hmmmmm! Now I know why he struck me with madness. He sent me here because of you. God always has a good reason for everything he allows to happen to his children. He struck me with madness so he can bring his message across to you.
Sarah, don’t reject his love. Don’t think you’re too filthy to be cleansed. Accept God’s offer of mercy. Run to Jesus and let him wash you”.
“Cris! You don’t understand! I don’t believe God would strike you with madness to bring you here. You came here because of your sins. God was punishing you for something horrible that you did. That was all that brought you here!” She said admist tears.
I was shocked. I didn’t know what else to say again. I knew God brought me here because of her, but the major part of what brought me here was my sins.
“CRIS, STOP WALKING BY FACTS. WALK BY FAITH. AS LONG AS YOU BELIEVE I SENT YOU TO THIS PLACE, DON’T WAVER IN WHAT YOU BELIEVE. A MAN WHO WAVERS WILL NEVER GET ANYTHING FROM ME!”
“Daddy her case looks too difficult. Her heart is so depressed and broken. She has lost faith in the word of God. Her case is beyond me. It’s too difficult”.
“CRIS, WAIT A SECOND! HER CASE IS TOO DIFFICULT FOR WHO? ME OR YOU?”
“Sorry sir! For me!” I apologized.
“WAIT LET ME GET THIS STRAIGHT. HAVE YOU BEEN THE SOUL WINNER ALL THESE WHILE?”
“No sir! I’m sorry!” I said, my eyes were getting blurred with tears.
“CRIS! I BROUGHT YOU HERE FOR THIS PURPOSE. YOU’RE THE ONE HOLDING THE BREAD FOR YOUR HUNGRY GENERATION. YOU’RE HOLDING THE BREAD SHE NEEDS. SO I AM GOING TO USE YOU IN A DIMENSION I HAVE NEVER DONE BEFORE”, he replied.
I was surprised. What would God still want to use me? I was such a mess. I had done so much hurtful things in the past. Why would he use me?
“CRIS! I NEVER ASKED FOR GOLDEN VESSELS. NOR DID I ASK FOR SILVER VESSELS. I ONLY NEED A YIELDED VESSEL. THAT’S ALL I NEED. A VESSEL THAT MAKES HIMSELF AVAILABLE AND IS WILLING TO DO MY WORK.
I DON’T NEED YOUR REPORT CARD. ALL I NEED IS YOUR YIELDEDNESS. AS LONG AS YOU’RE YIELDED, I WILL DO MIGHTY THINGS THROUGH YOU”.
“Oh Daddy! This is too much!” I said within me in awe. I just couldn’t comprehend the depth of God’s love. He was still ready to use me, despite my faults.
I smiled and rose to my feet. Sarah was watching me, but I was carried away with our little discussion.
“So what do I tell her?”
“DON’T SAY ANYTHING! JUST BEGIN TO PRAY IN TONGUES”.
I began pacing the room and speaking in tongues. She looked at me and got curious. I was speaking in whispers to God. This went on for over 5 minutes.
“OPEN YOUR MOUTH AND I WILL FILL IT”, Came the gentle whisper.
I turned to her looked straight in the eye. Our eyes met and I can’t explain what happened to me as our eyes met. I began to feel goose bumps on my skin. I felt my body vibrating under a kind of spiritual energy.
I opened my mouth and spoke. I had never experienced what I experienced that day.
“Sarah! It is me! Don’t mind this earthen vessel hosting me. I have decided to speak through her to you. Sarah I remembered how you love me back then. You were on fire for me. But when Kelvin fell sick, you had nowhere to go.
I was using that situation to build you for something greater, but you didn’t understand. I was only preparing you for what lied ahead of you. But you fell into sin and lost it all. It was only a test of your faith and you failed.
You couldn’t forgive yourself for failing the test. You wanted to save your brother from dying. You fell for the suggestion from tour prostitute friends. You went with them to the club and they hooked you up with a guy.
You gave him your body and went with the money for your brother’s treatment. On getting home, Kelvin was already dead. Sarah! It was heart breaking. But that was the same day Eunice came asking you if Jesus could change her life.
You have been preaching to Eunice for 3 months. You even fasted and prayed for her. She was a well known prostitute. You had laboured spiritually on her. That day was the day your prayers were supposed to be answered.
She had been dumped by the man who promised to marry her. She hid her profession from the man. She even stopped her prostitution work to become a school teacher when she knew he loved her. But as soon as the man found out she was once a prostitute, he ended the relationship.
She pleaded and pleaded with him to forgive her, but he didn’t bulge. She wept for days. I was able to finally convince her to meet you and be introduced to Jesus. After much deliberation, she decided to see if Jesus could change her life. That was how she ended up meeting you that day. She was asking you if I could change her life?
But you never saw the opportunity. You were so swallowed by the grief of everything that happened to you and sent her away without giving her the gospel. All her attempt to hear about Jesus that day from your lips was futile.
The next thing that followed was the news of Eunice’s sucide. She hanged herself in her room with a note in her hand. It read,
‘I thought there was still hope for me. Even Jesus could not save me’.
You knew you were the cause of her untimely death. You wept and wept till there were no tears in your eyes anymore. And there, you made a vow that you would never meet me for reconciliation. Because you thought I would never forgive you for what you did. You thought there was no hope for you in Jesus.
You concluded you had disappointed me so badly and sent a soul to hell. You believe I would be so mad at you and never forgive you for what you did”.
“Jesus!” Sarah gasped and lay prostrate on the floor.
“Sarah! It’s me Jesus! Forget about the human being I’m speaking through. She has no idea of what I’m speaking through her right now. I switched spirits. As a confirmation, after this conversation. She’ll be the one asking you to tell her what happened?
Sarah, is my hand too short that it cannot save? Is there anything too hard for me to do? Answer me!”
She wept the more.
“Lord, why the extreme mile, just because of me? Why strike Cris with madness, just to being her here? Why would you do all these for a failure like me?” She asked admist tears.
“Daughter! I love you! I’m the shepherd that leaves the 99 behind just to look for one missing sheep. Sounds to extreme. I already have 99, why would I leave them to go after just one?
It’s because I have one driving force. Even David said in the scriptures, ‘ What is man? That thou art thoughtful of him? What is the son of man, that thou vistest him?’
Sarah, I love you! I’ll never stop loving you. I have missed you so much. I can’t leave you in the tormenting arms of the devil. He keeps telling you there’s no hope for you.
But I’m here to tell you that there is hope for the tree that has been cut down. Sarah, are you ready to take my hand and journey with this loving Jesus?
“Lord! I’m so sorry! Forgive me for failing you!” That was what I heard her saying, when I woke up.
I found myself on the floor and Sarah, kneeling beside me, pouring her heart to God.
“What am I doing on the floor? What happened to me?”
I remembered I was talking to Sarah about Jesus. But what happened to me along the way?
It was after the prayers that Sarah told me everything that happened. How Jesus possessed my human body to speak to her.
I cried when she told me. I couldn’t believe Daddy would go such length to Dave a soul. Secondly, I couldn’t believe he would use me to that extent.
To be continued…….
Who told you you’re too sinful to be saved?
Who told you you have disappointed God so much that there’s no hope for you in Christ?
Jesus you love me too much oooo
Too much oooo
Too much oooo excess love ooo
