© Ayo Omolayo
JULIET’S POV.
I jumped out of the bed sweating heavily. I looked around and discovered it was all a dream.
Haaaa! Thank you Jesus! I can’t imagine I was that stupid. I opened my mouth and prayed a very stupid prayer. I told God to kill me, can you imagine?
I looked around and found Mummy Abayomi staring at me.
“Haa! Mummy! You won’t believe what happened just now!”
“I know! That’s why I came here to wake you up.”
I was surprised.
“Do you mean you were seeing what I saw?”
“Sure! I placed a spiritual danger alarm on you. I told the angel I assigned over you to always alert me whenever you were under attack.”
“So that means, you saw what I was seeing?”
“The school principal appearing to you as an answer to your prayers, is that what you’re referring to?”
“Yes ma! I can’t believe I prayed that kind of prayer.”
“You were busy resisting the Holy Ghost. The Holy Ghost said you should pray for Fejiro and you refused. There’s no way you can resist the two forces of nature at the same time. If you resist the spirit of God, you’ll end up saying yes to the devil. And if you say no to the devil, you’ll end up saying yes to God.
The problem with many addicts today is they say no to the devil and still say no to God at the same time. When the urge come to commit sin comes and you stand your ground to resist, God would also be there to give you certain instructions by laying them in your heart.
If you resist the devil and also resist that instruction God gave you, the urge will come back stronger. That’s what make some addicts to overcome the urge to engage in addiction and even start thanking God. Before you know the next minute, they fall into that same sin they claimed they overcame.
Many do not realize this. You resist the devil and he flees, then the Holy Ghost comes and just lays an instruction in your heart through a gentle whisper, telling you to pray for like 30 minutes. If you resist and tell him it’s too difficult, you’ll soon discover that the urge to commit that sin you just overcame will come back in a stronger way than before.
That’s part of the reason why many believers struggle and struggle endlessly. Anyway, God did answer your prayers, right?” She asked grinning.
“Mummy!” I called frowning.
“I thought you told him you wanted to die. Why were you running when the opportunity came?”
“Mummy this is not a joke. If at all I was to die, I don’t think I want that kind of death. I don’t want to die in the hands of my enemies. I want the angels to come and carry me to heaven.”
“Because you’re what?”
“Ma!”
“No angels should come and carry you because you’re Madam Juliet! Abi?”
“Mummy!”
“Juliet, your pride is out of this world. But the problem with pride is so painful. Because even if you’re proud, you will still not believe you’re proud. The proud man is too proud to believe he’s proud.
Do you know the dimension of pride in you?”
“No ma!”
“It’s called the pride of a dictator. You like leading God. I mean, you like giving God better leadership skills. You like telling the Holy Ghost what to do instead of listening and obeying what he tells you to do.
God will tell you, do this! You’ll tell him let’s try it my way. My plan is better than yours. The bible says trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding.
Juliet, it’s easy for you to say yes in capital letters if I ask you whether you trust God. But deep within you, you feel God needs your correction. You feel you need to adjust and modify some instructions. How can God say I should pray when I’m feeling so tired?
We resist the Holy Ghost, and then sin comes in a stronger form and it becomes difficult to resist it.
So Juliet! I ask you again. Do you still want to help God lead the way?”
I broke down in tears.
“I’m so sorry! I just don’t know what’s wrong with me?”
“You know! Aunty Juliet! You know! Your problem is submission. Your will is so strong. Your will is powerful. You’re ready to try it your way. And even when it doesn’t work out your way, you still believe it can work by making more attempts.
Are you ready to abandon your ways completely? God’s way might not be easy, but you’ll never regret it. Are you sure you want it?”
I went down on my knees.
“I’m ready! Please Mummy pray for me!” I pleaded.
She prayed for me and left my room. But I was still feeling restless. Immediately I remembered the Holy Ghost telling me to pray for Fejiro.
I was still thinking about it when the door opened and Susan told me that someone was here to see me.
“Who?”
“Fejiro!”
“Ha! Thank you Jesus! I’m so glad she’s now safe. I can’t believe she came on her own to reconcile with me!” I jumped to my feet and raced down the stairs.
I won’t say it’s something, because we have been told not to call the Holy Ghost something. So I’ll say, the Holy Ghost was giving me this feeling that something had gone wrong. But since I wasn’t ready to agree with him, I kept rebuking the thought.
I didn’t know he was only trying to give me a background information. I thought it was the devil whispering evil to me.
I got downstairs and met her.
“Fejiro!” I called and went down on my knees.
“I am so sorry! Please! Find a place in your heart to forgive!”
She stood up with a straight face.
“Juliet!” She called with a harsh voice.
“No! Please! I know I have failed you!”
“Yes! You have failed me woefully! You are nothing but a bundle of disappointment!”
“Please! Find a place in your heart to forgive me! I am so sorry! Please!”
“I will never forgive you! Never! You are a disgrace!”
“Please Fejiro!” I said and crawled on my knees to where she was standing.
“Don’t come close!” She shouted.
“Please!” I pleaded tearfully.
She looked at me and shook her head. Her tears flowed down.
I was so glad God was softening her heart.
“Thank you Jesus!” I whispered.
“Juliet! I’m so…… I’m so!” She broke down in tears.
I quickly rushed to meet her on the floor where she was crying and took her in my arms. We wept together.
It was an evening of reconciliation. We both apologized to each other. it was almost getting dark so I asked quickly asked if she wanted me to pray for her.
“No! I’ll sort myself out.”
I was shocked by that statement. Was something really wrong?
She stood up and walked very slowly to the door. She turned and looked at me.
“I came here to tell you that…..!” She paused.
“That what?” I asked.
“That!” She started crying again.
“Fejiro!” I called and made to meet her.
She quickly opened the door and ran outside.
Immediately, my spirit told me to chase her.
I ran out to meet my friend limping. I was like. What happened to her? Did somebody hit her with a vehicle?
“Fejiro!” I called and ran after her. She couldn’t run fast, so I caught up with her in no time.
“Please don’t do this to yourself! You’re not okay!” I said as I grabbed her.
“Please leave me alone!” She said as she knocked my hands away.
“What happened to you?”
“None of your business! You left me! You abandoned me when I needed you in the place of prayers. You abandoned me when I was down and needed a friend. Now you want to know what happened when you left? You are joking!”
She said and made to walk but gave a cry of pain and stopped.
I studied her legs to find out where the car hit her. Her legs seemed okay to me.
I was about to take my eyes off her legs when I noticed two drops of blood on the backside of her legs.
She gave another cry of pain as she tried to take a step.
“Is it cramps? I’m sorry! I don’t know you suffer badly during your circle!” I said as I placed a hand on her shoulder.
This time , she didn’t resist.
“It’s okay dear!” I said rubbing her back.
I was still consoling her when something struck my mind. Today’s date. Today is the thirty first day of the month. The last time I saw Fejiro having her monthly circle was on the 14th. And she usually had her monthly flow either on the 13th or on the 14th.
So! Could this be what I am thinking? And Fejiro hardly had issue with cramps. She would only feel weak for a short while and sleepy. Especially the day when the egg comes out of her.
I haven’t seen a situation where cramps was so serious that it was making it’s victim to limp. The last time I saw someone limping it was a girl around my area who claimed that she gave her virginity to her boyfriend.
She was gisting her friends of how painful her first time of copulation with her boyfriend went. She made mention of something. She told her friends that she couldn’t walk properly for days of which I recalled.
Also, I watched a movie where a girl was raped. After the deed was done, she was limping back home in tears. Exactly the way my friend was limping right now.
Recognition hit me!
Haaaaaaaa! Jesus! I am finished! Wait! I thought God told me that that boy dating her was on an assignment from hell. To sleep with her and transfer a deadly disease into her that would end up terminating her life.
Hope he’s not the one who slept with her? My friend is safe if he wasn’t the one.
“Fejiro! We are both girls here!” I said as I grabbed her hand and turned her to face me.
“Tell me you didn’t sell that womb of yours!”
She looked at me and shut her eyes. I got my answer. She had been defiled.
“Haaaaa! Jesus! I deserve to die!”
“Juliet! I had been masturbating and watching porn for a long time. The urge to try out just once with a guy was seriously eating me up. I decided to have a taste of what it would really look like to copulate in real life.
I thought I would be smiling and full of joy like those porn actors. No! It was all a trick. It was painful, it was hell! I was just enduring the whole act. I know it’s because I’m a first timer, but I wished it was my wedding night. It would have made much sense.”
I felt like Judas Iscariot. I felt like looking for a rope and hanging myself.
“Fejiro, please tell me it wasn’t that guy? Please! Don’t tell me it was him!”
“That’s what I came here to tell you. When you left, he came back and met me crying. He was so comforting and kind. He took me into his car. The driver never said anything to us. He drove us to his family house.
I wondered why it was empty. I was thinking his parents would scold him for bringing a girl to the house.
He took away my curiosity when he said his parents travelled out of the country and would be back this weekend.
He took me upstairs to a room and told me to sit down. I sat on the bed and he began to ask me certain questions.
The place was heavenly. It was beautiful. He brought chilled fruit juice and gave me to drink.
He spoke kindly to me and soon, I started having the urge so badly.
I was in the perfect scene for it. Nobody around and I’m alone with a guy. What’s keeping me?
He got the message from the look in my eyes and took advantage of my vulnerable state. He began to play with my body and I didn’t stop him. That was how we ended up eating the forbidden fruit. I just got here from his place. His driver brought me, when I was crying and demanding to leave.
Juliet! I can’t believe I gave out my virginity just like that! I can’t believe I would end up copulating with my own classmate. Where do I hide my face?”
She was now weeping bitterly, and I was not left out. I was so terrified to break the news that she had lost more than her dignity.
“God please I don’t care if it’s the principal or Satan himself that comes to kill me this time. It would be unfair for you to forgive me! I deserve judgment!”
To be continued………
I feel like crying right now.
😭😭😭😭😭
Matthew 13:25 But while men slept, his enemy came and sowed tares among the wheat, and went his way.
That sleep was more than physical. It was a sleep of prayerlessness. A sleep of spiritual holiday. It was a sleep of disobedience to the instructions of the Holy Ghost. It was a sleep of carelessness and giving into sin.
That was enough to give the devil the access he needed.
One of the prayers we must pray is, Lord! Help me to always be watchful and prayerful.
